hmm.. so confused now.. confused about my feelings and mood right now.. sian.. feel like finding one corner and cry..

introduction to 2nd book

Introduction to the 2nd book i am going to share with you.. it called

God own$ - Manage money the Biblical Way - by Benny Ho

“Building from the biblical perspective of Old Testament foundations to New Testament principles, the book is full of solid theology, practical wisdom, powerful illustrations, memorable quotes, great jokes and if applied, life-changing truths – this book is going to bless you!”
- Steve Findley, Senior Pastor, Community of Praise Baptist Church, Singapore


Forward
In his book God Own$, Benny HO examines the effect of wealth on both Christians and non-Christians. He has explained very clearly how a Christian can control money without being controlled by it. Why is money never enough for those who have already amassed millions? Unless we believe and acknowledge in both our thought and deed that God is the owner of all our resources we will not find the answer to the problems that wealth and possessions bring to our lives.

Some Christians deprive themselves of the pleasure of eating a sumptuous meal or having an expensive holiday, and yet they are unable or unwilling to share their blessings with those who are less privileged. Some are always in financial difficulty in spite of the few hundred thousand dollars they earn every year. In this book Benny gives the reasons for many people’s financial struggles based on his own experience and from the many years of counseling individuals in the financial services industry.

Benny offers his advice on how we can deal with greed, which is a constant enemy of contentment and which often ruins our ability to enjoy what we already have. He shows his unique ability to communicate the wisdom of God’s Word so that readers will find practical help in the course of handling their finances.

God’s definition of success is faithful stewardship. How can we move from ownership to stewardship? God wants us to enjoy what He has given us. If we take His Word seriously and apply it to our daily living, we would have a quality of life found not in the arts of culture, but in having a personal relationship with Him and through employing the resources He has given us for His glory.
- Benny Ong, Founding Director, Life Planning Associates Pte Ltd, Singapore



Author Preface
I write this book for a few reasons:
1) God, by divine appointment, allowed my life to be closely associated with some Christians who are outstanding bankers and financial advisers. My interaction with them has taught me so much about both the good and the bad of money.
2) But the most compelling reason I wrote this book is that I felt the burden from God to lovingly call us back to a balanced and biblical view of money and to challenge us to view money as a means to abundant living and a tool to serve the purposes of God. It is out of this sense of prophetic burden that I present these thoughts to you.

It is my prayer that this simple book will contribute towards the raising of a Church that walks free from a scarcity mentality and lives with an abundance mentality because we serve a God of generosity and abundance! Amen. - Benny Ho

SAVE ME!

God put me to test again.. to testify me.. whether i can get over her again.. why.. why let me see this infront of them.. i dun want.. set me free.. i want to be free.. crying silence-ly.. wiping tears.. why i need to do that everytime.. do that ever since sept 1.. why.. tell me.. can someone answer me.. i need help.. i need God's strength.. i need..

now i trying to fake it.. answer all my frens msn reply.. trying.. to help them. .give them warmth.. and yet.. i can't help myself.. what is this..

i shall not blame God.. i shall have faith in God..

seeing that really really.. i dunno.. all my deep thought.. underground thoughts all push up to the brim of my throat..

i am faking my "haha" in my msn.. i need to try means to reach out to the lost ones.. i can't fail.. no matter i am sad or not.. i need.. i NEED to.. God.. SAVES ME!!

to her

To vic: ha.. now i am listening to JJ 1st album.. for the 1st time i am listening the entire album.. juz now u asked me how to do.. how to react with him..

for my case.. if i were really u.. if he is so WILLing to give u the warmth and the love.. if he is WILLing to protect and care for u.. why not.. juz give him a chance and consider.. if u are still unsure abt that.. juz choose a good quiet time.. ask him slowly.. not that time when he is joking around of course.. maybe during home calls or not.. (option 1)

or maybe.. u can juz go out with home.. 2 of u2 only.. like that u2 can understand each other better.. understand is really the key to everything.. go out a few times.. go far far de loh.. like go eastpoint.. or harbourfront mall.. those ulu ulu.. ur frens won't meet dao u2 de loh.. like that u2 can really really enjoy the day.. maybe after these understanding.. u WILL be able to make a better decision.. somemore.. holidays mah.. pick a few days along these few weeks to go out with him loh.. understand.. ?.. haha.. (option 2)

it's really unworth it to wei le all those rumours to break this friendship with him.. someone who is WILLing.. who can WILLing to chat with u.. consider bah.. my best plan is option 2 lah.. since there's time.. there's chance.. things will turned out well enough de.. WILL they?

haha.. enough of mocking at you liao.. i WILL stop now.. haha..
best wishes...
hope you will find your happiness..
with regards,
meng.

aftermath

posts no.20.. yup.. a sad and happy ones.. i really dunno what to say.. before that i hold my tears.. and now my sis asked me to jia you.. i really.. i can't stand it anymore.. tears run down my eyes while i was typing now.. wah.. really very emotional now..

tonite is really a emotional one.. 1/2 hr before.. she bring out the iron mumble out "i can't stand this kind of ppl" (wo kan bu qi zhe zhong ren).. i noe she didn't mean me.. but i test her and say.. "oh.. kan bu qi wo oh.. ".. i trying to let her realised her faults and yup.. she say as usual.. that she didn't mean is me.. juz some usual say.. that.. .it's becoz of some reoccurance incident she thought when she is ironing..

actually the thing starts when she was shifting the iron to the living room saying there's not enuf space for her to iron in the master bedroom.. it was very packed (with my used papers).. so i juz rub some salts on to the wound.. and bring all those carton out of the room.. and make way for her loh.. haha. or course i did it with a soft voice "oh kan bu qi wo oh.. bu yong jing"...

then she noe that she was at fault.. she apologised.. as i told u from the very recent post.. scroll down.. this thing has been stirring around already lah.. not that if my mood today is like last few daes.. wah.. i tell u... gone case.. my mum will be busy comforting me.. while i cried out loud and scream out loud.. and for that birthday incident.. i cried untill i am out of breathe.. that's how serious it is.. so i noe learning to control on my temper already.. it has been better.. as i have controlled well ytd.. simply ignored her ytd.. today i juz 1 to let her noe.. no hard feelings.. juz that to want her to stop all those nonsense before ppl around her think that she is crazy.. yup..

but her last words really touched my heart.. "u are my brother.. i won't doubt you!" .. wah.. tell u.. i almost cried out loud.. but i hold back my tears.. really that touching.. haha.. yup.. juz 1 to say that.. today i finally did it.. control my temper and to manage this situation well enough without been angered.. thank God.. with this faithfulness. .i will move on..

MY SIS

hai.. God is really tempting..nono.. is Satan... Satan really really tempted me to hate my sister.. God told us to love and care one another.. to accept their wrongs and forgives their faulties..

forgive and forget

accept and tolerant

i have been tolerant my 2nd sister for the past 3-4 years.. last time she used to worked in student care .. she is been more serious... HER mood is like will influence others ppl de.. ten she WILL throw all the temper in my hse.. which as results.. my family got to tolerant them.. we got asked WHAT HAPPENED TO HER.. she juz say "dunno.. i even noe myself for doing that".. then i was.. like? ??? questions marks everywhere..

so i assumed it's stressed lah.. but why does she bring stress from work back home.. as in ytd.. ytd.. she YELLS at mum moer than 5 times.. i almost want to shouted at her to stop it now.. Satan is really tempted me... i really really.. will break down anytime.. last time i do it is that midnight of my 1st hour of my 17th birthday..

at abt past midnight... she was mopping the floor and she shouted something like "nobody cares abt me YOU ALL also.. !!".. then i was dam fed up by that lah.. can't she juz shut her gap up and mop quickly and slp quickly.. i then shouted.. "YA YA.. WE DUN CARE ABT U"

then i run into the toilet and weeps.. BANGING THE DOOR... untill my mum comes.. then i shouted again.. "TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY LEH.. CAN'T SHE JUZ RESPECT ME.. WHY DOES SHE 1 TO THROW HER TEMPER EVERYTIME.. I REALLY CAN'T STAND HER".. then i gushed out of the toilet and back to my room also hers room.. then i banged even louder that time.. then i cried and cried untill my whole pillow wets.. till i fall asleep

later i then noe is that.. my sis means is that her boyfren family dun care abt her lah.. treated her as nth.. then she was thinking abt that.. and it juz shout it out lah.. she got apologised.. but at that point of time.. i didn;t forgive her.. really..

why muz she bring this up.. even thru mopping.. put aside my bd lah.. but.. isn't it.. wrong to.. aiya dunno lah.. maybe i am not mature enough to understand.. as time passes.. i been to realise.. we.. each of us got diffn ways of handling stress.. some better at it.. some not.. so i suppose she is not..

thru Christ.. i began to forgive and forget.. yup.. it juz .. run to my brain.. i keep forcing my thoughts of "shouting back" to be gone.. and to keep telling myself to forgive and forget... yup..
hope it really works.. :!

Life story 13

Life story 13
‘I soon became bed-ridden and realized that my condition was very severe’

In oct 1995, I started to experience tremendous “shooting” pains that ran down the back of my left leg. Despite taking pain killers the pain continued to worsen. I was diagnosed as having a slipped disc. The doctor gave me painkillers and medical leave. The strong medication did not help as the pain continued in intensity. I soon became bed-ridden and realized that my condition was very severe. I was admitted to Gleneagles Hospital.

An MRI scan revealed that about 80% of a disc was protruding out of alignment and an urgent operation to remove the prolapsed disc was recommended as the only possible remedy. The operation was done the next day.

However in the subsequent weeks and months things did not go well. There was great pain at the operation site and I had to be re-admitted for an epidural injection to eliminate the pain. But it was only a temporary measure.

In Dec 1995, Dr and Mrs Charles Hunter came to preach at City Harvest Church in Singapore. I was still suffering great pain but I eagerly wanted to attend their meeting as they were going to pray for the sick.

Mustering all my strength I made my way to the church, but could not sit throughout the service as the pain was unbearable. After preaching, the Hunters said God had spoken to them to pray for people who had spinal problems. I immediately made my way up to the stage!

The entire church joined the Hunters to pray for me. Almost immediately, I realized that there was no more pain in my spine. The Hunters asked me to stretch my spine by bending forwards, backwards and sideways. I was stunned that there was no pain at all! The Hunters asked me to jump, and for the first time in there months, I could jump without pain! I was completely healed and have been so ever since that time nine years ago --- when Jesus touched me.

Suraj, 39, works in City Harvest Church, Singapore.

Life story 12

Life story 12
‘Never had I expected to suffer from a stroke’

On 18 May 2002 at about midnight as I was lying in bed, I felt very confused. My wife noticed my restlessness and turned towards me. As a practicing anaesthetist she immediately realized that I had had a stroke. My left arm and leg could not move.

After a series of tests at Mount Elizabeth Hospital in Singapore, it was confirmed that it was a stroke. In medical jargon I had a ‘complete occlusion of my right internal carotid artery’, which supplies blood to the right side of the brain. This complete block paralysed the other [left] side of my body. Furthermore my heart had ‘ventricular ectopics and arrythmias beat’. It was beating irregularly.

While in hospital I made a gradual recovery of the use of my left limbs and was discharged on the 23 May 2002.

Meanwhile, prayers were fervently offered by my wife and family, relatives in Singapore and Malaysia, cell and church members and friends even as far as Australia. We were united in prayers.

A week later I was brought to a healing service at Lighthouse Church in Singapore. Pastor Ronny instructed all those who were ill to place their hands on the part that was afflicted.

In faith I placed my hand on the right side of my neck and after prayer, I felt a sudden gush of blood flow up my neck, I knew there and then that God had healed me!

At the hospital I repeated a Colour Doppler Ultrasound scan on myself, to check the blood flow in my neck artery. I was amazed to learn that the blood flow was now normal and totally unobstructed.

My neurologist after seeing the scan said it was impossible for this to happen! So he repeated the scan the next day, only to confirm the same results. This was unbelievable, and he requested an MRI angiogram to be done for me. This was the ultimate high-tech scan. It again confirmed beyond any doubt that my artery was totally cleared of any obstruction. God healed me.

I am now back to normal work and leisure. I have even journeyed to Aceh for the Tsunami relief in 2005.


Never had I expected to suffer from a stroke, as I had always considered myself healthy. But I did. Never had I expected that God would touch me and heal me so miraculously, so completely. But He did. Hallelujah! Praise His Name!

Dr Tan Hun Hoe, 51, is a consultant urologist in private practice in Singapore.

Life story 11

Life story 11
‘God healed me miraculously…twice!’

When I was 19 years old, I developed an irregular heartbeat condition known as paroxysmal atrial tachycardia. The doctors told me that I needed to be on medication for life.

On 12 Dec 1985 when I attended a Gospel rally, I heard about the true and living God who loves all mankind so much that He died in our place, to redeem us from our sins. On that day I received Jesus Christ into my life as my personal Saviour. As faith arose in my heart, I raised my hand to God and asked Him to heal me.

Suddenly, I felt God’s peace and joy as tears rolled down my cheeks. Somehow I could sense that God had answered my prayers and healed me. From that very night I stopped all my medications.

My doctor was very upset when I told him what I had done. However after some investigations, he was greatly surprised that my heart was normal and said I had become totally healed! Hallelujah!

Then in 1997 I was diagnosed with chronic liver inflammation had deteriorated. It got worse with each passing month. I was told that I would eventually develop liver cirrhosis and possibly liver failure.

I went home and cried to God. I told Him ‘I know Heaven is a beautiful place where there are no more tears. But God, please have mercy on me. I am not ready to meet you yet.’

At my next medical follow-up, my liver function tests showed improvements. My blood tests revealed that I had developed antibodies to hepatitis B. It was a miracle—the second one in my life!

God had given me a brand new liver! He has been gracious to give me another lease of life. Since that day eight years ago, I have remained well. Hallelujah! Praise His Name!

Ms Yeow Peak Swan, 40, works as an accountant.

Quotes

ha.. there's 2 quotes that i have seen in one of the art gallery on last sat 29/9.. here u go
both are find inside the short acknowledgement of the painters.. :)

1st: "A farmer planted seed. Some fell on the road. some in the gravel. some among weeds, nothing came of it. but some fell on good earth and came up with a flourish, producing, a harvest exceeding his wildest dreams" Mark 4 : 3-8

2nd: "... They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the Lord. For the display of His splendour"

Life story 10

Life story 10
‘God is healing you right now!’

The small dark spots of floaters which developed in my right eye resulted in a spreading inflammation. My vision was completely blocked and my right eye was becoming blind.

In 1994, I was diagnosed with Toxoplasmosism a condition caused by the parasite called Toxoplasma gondii. At the Singapore National Eye Centre I was prescribed steroids, and was told that I would have to live with my condition for the rest of my life. It was incurable and would recur under any sort of stress. After six months of medication my condition gradually improved.

However, in the last quarter of 1997 I suffered a relapse and started to see floaters again. In Dec of that year I attended Pastor Peter Youngren’s seminar at City Harvest Church, Singapore.

When he gave an altar call he said ‘There is someone here who is having eye problems, you are seeing dark spots in your eye. God is healing you right now!’

When I heard that I lifted up my head and opened my eyes, and praise God the floaters had suddenly disappeared! I could not understand it, I could not believe it, but I knew God had healed me.

In the eight years since that day, I have graduated from University, got married, had a son, worked 16 hours most days, and though I have been through many stressful periods, praise the Lord the condition has never recurred. He has truly touched me and healed me!

Jimmy Sng, 31, works in City Harvest Church, Singapore.

Life story 9

Life story 9
‘If He is able to heal me, I will build a church for Him!’

I was an ancestral worshipper for more than 20 years before I came to know the Lord. In 1973, I fell seriously ill. Both Western and Chinese doctors I consulted could not help and over several months my condition deteriorated, as I lost blood each time I urinated. One of my employees said to me, ‘The only one who can help you, even if no doctor can, is Jesus.’ So where’s Jesus? If He is able to heal me, I will build a church for Him.’ I said.

In Tanhong Pinang I found a Pentecostal pastor who, upon laying hands on me and praying, told me that Jesus had healed me of my sickness. I did not feel anything then, but when I reached home my urine became clear for the first time in months. I thought to myself, ‘How extraordinary!’

After I had been well for two months I began to think to myself, ‘Building a church can be very expensive!’ I told myself that it was the medication from the doctors that had made me well, and not Jesus. Immediately the next morning I passed out fresh blood again, and was rushed to the hospital in severe pain as I could not urinate. The doctor said he had no choice but to operate.

Suddenly I thought about praying to Jesus, and as I did so, immediately I was able to pass urine. However I still needed an operation as the doctor had earlier found a very large stone in my bladder blocking the urine outflow.

That night before my surgery I went to see Pastor William Lee at Glad Tidings Church in S’pore who laid hands on me and prayed for healing. The following morning I found I could urinate very well. The flow was very strong. I was anxious still as I was due for surgery that afternoon, and yet I knew that God would heal me. In the toilet my urine was white as milk with a lot of sandy particles. The previous day it has been red like darkened tea. ‘This is amazing!’ I thought to myself, as faith started to rise up in my heart. Then all of a sudden I passed out a big stone!

From that moment I knew that Jesus had healed me completely. There and then I gave my heart unreservedly to Jesus. On my return to Riau Islands, I immediately made plans to build my first church building for the glory of Jesus my Lord. Since then, God has been with me in every situation and I love Him. Hallelujah!

Mr Goh Yong kwang, 69, is a timber businessman from Batam, Riau Islands, Indonesia. He has built several churches in Riau for God’s glory.