MY SIS

hai.. God is really tempting..nono.. is Satan... Satan really really tempted me to hate my sister.. God told us to love and care one another.. to accept their wrongs and forgives their faulties..

forgive and forget

accept and tolerant

i have been tolerant my 2nd sister for the past 3-4 years.. last time she used to worked in student care .. she is been more serious... HER mood is like will influence others ppl de.. ten she WILL throw all the temper in my hse.. which as results.. my family got to tolerant them.. we got asked WHAT HAPPENED TO HER.. she juz say "dunno.. i even noe myself for doing that".. then i was.. like? ??? questions marks everywhere..

so i assumed it's stressed lah.. but why does she bring stress from work back home.. as in ytd.. ytd.. she YELLS at mum moer than 5 times.. i almost want to shouted at her to stop it now.. Satan is really tempted me... i really really.. will break down anytime.. last time i do it is that midnight of my 1st hour of my 17th birthday..

at abt past midnight... she was mopping the floor and she shouted something like "nobody cares abt me YOU ALL also.. !!".. then i was dam fed up by that lah.. can't she juz shut her gap up and mop quickly and slp quickly.. i then shouted.. "YA YA.. WE DUN CARE ABT U"

then i run into the toilet and weeps.. BANGING THE DOOR... untill my mum comes.. then i shouted again.. "TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY LEH.. CAN'T SHE JUZ RESPECT ME.. WHY DOES SHE 1 TO THROW HER TEMPER EVERYTIME.. I REALLY CAN'T STAND HER".. then i gushed out of the toilet and back to my room also hers room.. then i banged even louder that time.. then i cried and cried untill my whole pillow wets.. till i fall asleep

later i then noe is that.. my sis means is that her boyfren family dun care abt her lah.. treated her as nth.. then she was thinking abt that.. and it juz shout it out lah.. she got apologised.. but at that point of time.. i didn;t forgive her.. really..

why muz she bring this up.. even thru mopping.. put aside my bd lah.. but.. isn't it.. wrong to.. aiya dunno lah.. maybe i am not mature enough to understand.. as time passes.. i been to realise.. we.. each of us got diffn ways of handling stress.. some better at it.. some not.. so i suppose she is not..

thru Christ.. i began to forgive and forget.. yup.. it juz .. run to my brain.. i keep forcing my thoughts of "shouting back" to be gone.. and to keep telling myself to forgive and forget... yup..
hope it really works.. :!