aftermath

posts no.20.. yup.. a sad and happy ones.. i really dunno what to say.. before that i hold my tears.. and now my sis asked me to jia you.. i really.. i can't stand it anymore.. tears run down my eyes while i was typing now.. wah.. really very emotional now..

tonite is really a emotional one.. 1/2 hr before.. she bring out the iron mumble out "i can't stand this kind of ppl" (wo kan bu qi zhe zhong ren).. i noe she didn't mean me.. but i test her and say.. "oh.. kan bu qi wo oh.. ".. i trying to let her realised her faults and yup.. she say as usual.. that she didn't mean is me.. juz some usual say.. that.. .it's becoz of some reoccurance incident she thought when she is ironing..

actually the thing starts when she was shifting the iron to the living room saying there's not enuf space for her to iron in the master bedroom.. it was very packed (with my used papers).. so i juz rub some salts on to the wound.. and bring all those carton out of the room.. and make way for her loh.. haha. or course i did it with a soft voice "oh kan bu qi wo oh.. bu yong jing"...

then she noe that she was at fault.. she apologised.. as i told u from the very recent post.. scroll down.. this thing has been stirring around already lah.. not that if my mood today is like last few daes.. wah.. i tell u... gone case.. my mum will be busy comforting me.. while i cried out loud and scream out loud.. and for that birthday incident.. i cried untill i am out of breathe.. that's how serious it is.. so i noe learning to control on my temper already.. it has been better.. as i have controlled well ytd.. simply ignored her ytd.. today i juz 1 to let her noe.. no hard feelings.. juz that to want her to stop all those nonsense before ppl around her think that she is crazy.. yup..

but her last words really touched my heart.. "u are my brother.. i won't doubt you!" .. wah.. tell u.. i almost cried out loud.. but i hold back my tears.. really that touching.. haha.. yup.. juz 1 to say that.. today i finally did it.. control my temper and to manage this situation well enough without been angered.. thank God.. with this faithfulness. .i will move on..