SAVE ME!

God put me to test again.. to testify me.. whether i can get over her again.. why.. why let me see this infront of them.. i dun want.. set me free.. i want to be free.. crying silence-ly.. wiping tears.. why i need to do that everytime.. do that ever since sept 1.. why.. tell me.. can someone answer me.. i need help.. i need God's strength.. i need..

now i trying to fake it.. answer all my frens msn reply.. trying.. to help them. .give them warmth.. and yet.. i can't help myself.. what is this..

i shall not blame God.. i shall have faith in God..

seeing that really really.. i dunno.. all my deep thought.. underground thoughts all push up to the brim of my throat..

i am faking my "haha" in my msn.. i need to try means to reach out to the lost ones.. i can't fail.. no matter i am sad or not.. i need.. i NEED to.. God.. SAVES ME!!