tml is the bbq session for easter, i pray that everything will goes on well..
i will be the game master, hopefully everything turns out fine..scared. but i am sure that God will provide everything for me and for the participants there. so well.. i am prepared for the worst le bah.. plan ahead is the only thing to do liao..
prayXXXX:)
ha. thought of typing some special wishes down.. before i erased it..
Vic: A special msg for a special person on 200090112. what is the msg? Let's count to reveal! 3. 2. 1.*B'day msg revealing asap. 99.9% completed. completed. ~Happy Birthday to u! MAY u enjoy tis very special day n all ur wishes come true. God Bless you!~
Xiuy: Happy birthday to you.. Happy birthday to meng.. Zhu ni sheng ri kuai le! zhu ah meng ge sheng ri sheng ri kuai le! yao ji de kuai kuai le le! Wish you smile always=D
Euz: Chee Meng, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! May the Lord prosper u in every way and may He grant u the desires of your heart.
Also, was very surprise to saw my ex-best fren. Nick sms me suddenly, happy birthday. glad that he still willing to sms me. i mean we didn't contact so long since at the start of last year liao. abit wierd to suddenly wants to meet also bah. lol..
juz now.. It's really really great to be praying with my sister.. really can sense that presence of God
felt that God really spoken to us about our family.. really really..
felt very heartwarming and touched..
juz 1 to thank God for his wonderful guidance and impt testimony
it's great to be back in to the house of Lord
continue to grow as a christian
continue to keep in my faith and
extend my hands to receive more lost
guide them to the brightest path of THEIR LIVES
family salvation and FBI revolve! awaits!
Sometimes i wonder.. why muz i work finished my 17 days?.. for building fund?.. for my personal pleasure of buying nice outfits to wear?.. or what?..
why muz i stressed myself and work untill so hard that all.. ALL..my collegues asked me to rest awhile.. and my mental system is screwing up becoz of the busi-ness.. hmm.. how.. i think i will strived on bah..
the motivation really comes when i project myself wearing gentlemen' outfits to school and to church.. and how ppl look at me.. actually it's not how ppl look at me.. it's how confidence i am.. really.. i think i need more confidence for that.. haha.. but really.. i feel good wearing clothes that i bought by my own hard-earned money.. :)
it will be great if i bought a pair of Converse fold-over.. a pair of good jeans or a cargo pants.. 1-2 shirts.. 1 slim fit with a slim tie or just a comfort size with cool design.
a bracelet?.. or a ring leh?.. dunno leh.. still thinking.. anyway.. i calculated.. i still have around $200 to invest.. i mean.. willing to invest.. haha.. :)
wow..that's alot to dream of.. now i still go dreaming.. :)
dated 14/3/08 according to my sheet of paper i written. shld be after random day 2 when my head is better.
"Ha. I am back! No more giddyness anymore. I am on the Woo.. bus 52. It droves so extremely fast. Woohoo. Suddenly dunno what to write. Oh. It's so fast. Woohoo. Didn't make the wrong decision. I am holding myself, feeling a bit urgent to piss. But I guess I can hold till Bukit Timah Plaza bah."
i totally forgotten why i need to go there liao..
This random day is one of the afternoon after easter celebration where i meet wany to do the new friends cards.
"It's 14:56 now. The rain is dropping like never before. Sitting in the quite empty bus 80, listen to some emo songs. My heart gradually fallen to nowhere. This rain is just the tears that I kept for myself. Wind was blowing, the raindrops hit the bus stop. I can imagine it to be "Ti-da, Ti-da" but in a faster speed.
Red light to stop, Green light to go. Sometimes, I wonder is really traffic light helping and making our lives easier or not. Cause, with or without traffic light, people still jaywalk when there's no cars. Is Singaporeans patience enough? The answer is no. I, myself is a jaywalker liao. Monkey see monkey do. Not say that we are all monkey (even though many said I am.) It's just the truth that we need to face it lah.
How many accidents that's involved with jaywalkers? And how many are fatal? The amount is so big that it really scares ppl, including me. My head is spinning, maybe I am having split headaches bah. My mind wasn't right this time. Tell you more later when I felt more alright bah."
Some of those days in this year that i have written some of my thoughts down...
random days (1).. happened in one of the afternoon while i am having a pre- easter celebration full fasting..
"I AM TIRED of all the white lies, I AM TIRED of cheating my mum and my gran one way or another. I DUN WANT to hide my identity as a christian anymore. Help Jesus.
The wind is freezing cold. Avoid eating. I came to here. I dunno is the correct choice or not. But it seems to be a brilliant idea. COLD. COLD. COLD. But I know. with you. All things are possible. The weather WOULDN'T be cold anymore.
I FELT ALONE. I FELT LONELY. I AM HUNGRY. But i have my DUTY not to eat. I am not TIRED. But I just feel like hugged my bluster and nap.
Sian. My neighbours spotted me hiding around the corner of the staircase. I Feel so embarrassed."
1st up: I really thank God to be able to give me the time despite of my busy schedule to rest during this sat 15 march so that i can really pray to Him, the Lord during Prayer Meeting.. alone.. but nope.. i met a new fren.. her name is Sharon.. i pray together with her.. thank God.. by His grace i am be able to prayer as a grp with someone i dunno and yet improve on my speaking of prayers..
i rmb at that morning.. i really feel very lerthigtic.. i forced myself to get up at 7am even only with 5hrs slp.. due to the making of the new frens' cards.. i did that untill 1am the previous night.. He really give me a scold.. as in.. he pushes me down to slp and told me "CHEE MENG.. YOU BETTER SLP NOW.." he then give me some sneezes and feverish feelings that making me feel more sick and tired.. i brushes up but still very weary.. that's when xin wei told me that the kids will be going west coast park.. wah.. hot.. weather.. west coast.. me... west coast. thinking tht makes me feel even more sick.. i end up LITERALLY COLLAPSED DOWN on the bed.. with my jacket and the blanket covering me up to the neck.. i slp till 11 plus.. 4 more hrs..
after that i really feel so much better already.. i agreed to meet for pre-service even how early is it.. really feel so sian to get out my house early in the afternoon.. but with his MIGHTY strength.. i managed to pull myself up to go out..
2nd: i 1 to thank God for the sharing of happiness to me.. i really feel THE OVERWHELM OF HAPPINESS SHARED UPON ME when i go out and fellowship with my secondary school long term frens.. glisten inc. and mao's cliques on 14 mar fri and 16 mar sun respectively.. i really can sense His presence where.. the atmosphere is always so light and shiok.. especially 16 mar sun.. i laughed the HARDEST AND THE LONGEST.. totally by His Grace and then can have laugh so long.. i am really amazed by how my mouth comes out with jokes and cold jokes that makes everyone laughed and stunned.. i am TOTALLY shocked at myself on that sunday after cg prayer meeting.. by Your Faith.. i am able to shine to the lost and reach out to the them.. i will continue to meet their needs and help them.. guide them to the path to enter your House!
3rd: i 1 to share my financial blessings that God has set upon me.. even how i have give my building fund inconsistently.. He won't short-change me.. He keeps on sew on to me.. giving me the more than enough cash so that i can fellowship with each and single one of ppl i want to reach out to..from tue to sun (except sat) .. 11-16... 5 days.. i have been consistently meeting them for meals and activities.. i Pray that one day they respond to your Call.. respond to you as their Heavenly Father!
DATED 17 MARCH 2008.. i am going to DECLARE that.. from THIS DAY onwards i will SHARE MY TESTIMONIALS IN HERE.. every detailed one.. :)
so plz look out for these.. SOON.. i will update even sooner than my public blog!
